Sunday, March 11, 2012'
one more month and it will be my turn to celebrate my 21st
by then i will be very strong.
by then i wont care anymore
just forget and move on.
i only wish you the best.
Thursday, March 8, 2012'
they screened this at nanyang executive centre today!
its soooo good, funny and touching at the same time. Charlie Chaplin was a tramp who fell in love with a blind flower girl. He did many things for the girl, including boxing at some underground ring in order to get money to help pay the girl's rent. In the end the girl's eyes got cured with his money and she recognised him walking on the streets! (ˆ-ˆ!!!)
even though it was black and white, and a pantomime, everyone were so engrossed! we were all laughing in a thigh slapping manner at funny parts and then very hushed at the sad parts.
i do hope they have more of such nicee student welfare in school
met with prof on tue and just confirmed the main committee for our hongkong tcm symposium trip. Drafted my first formal email to the hongkong student organisers today. Hope i sounded okay #firstimpressioncounts. This week is so packed... saturday got internship,birthday celebration and sunday attending some tcm talk on the prospects of tcm in Singapore
(Zzz...)
Saturday, March 3, 2012'
today and tml are what i have of the recess wk.
half the sem has passed, as fast as it could be.
if you look up "bundle of nerves" in the dictionary, there will be a picture of me there in the explanation.
sometimes i think i am still learning the ropes of life, i am still so unsure of things.
when i do intern at Thongchai there i felt upset hearing about all the patients' ailments, looking at all those checkup reports they had to do, time and money they had to spend, in order to have a children. Then i will be thinking, "why issit that they have to suffer so much? while there are people out there who dont give a damn about anything, have healthy bodies, have healthy children and yet take everything for granted."
i am not sure if i fit to be a physician like that.
sometimes i think what i am doing/learning now will not bring me anywhere at all.
the research project that we are going to do, its for a hongkong/macau tcm conference that will happen in august. i kind of going to be the main organiser for this short trip, and it is very unsettling for me. Actually initially i was keen to be just one of the organisers. One reason for me to become the main organiser is becos there is this very disgusting guy in our class who wanted to be the organiser just so he can go on a subsidised overseas trip, basically me and everyone else thinks he will ruin the whole trip therefore i took up this main organiser thing, in an indignant spur of the moment. i think this is one rather stupid reason to want to volunteer for something. Now there is a committee of 6 pple, so we have strength in numbers! hope this whole thing will turn out fine, the research and this whole organising thing, hope i wont let others down, at least i will do things better than him.
meanwhile i will cont to be nervous wreck.
watching extremely loud and incredibly close after fangji finals is the most crazy thing to do. But it is so genius, and so emotionally charged, it gave me very "heavy boots"(coining a term from the movie). love everyone in the movie, love oskar schell, and his wordless grandpa.
sometimes i still feel very inferior. sometimes i feel so jaded in school.
i wish i can do more useful stuff, i wish i am not so unsure all the time, i wish time will just slow down a little bit so that i can take things one at a time.
